Happy NewYear 2014

I didn't think that a lot of people read this blog when a friend just asked me why she hadn't seen any recent blogs from me.
That is a good question. There are still people out there that would love to see me fail more then anything else. And it scared me. So I stopped. Kept my mouth shut and worked on some goals that I had set for myself.
And now its January. Last year in this month was when the term "hard love" took a new meaning.
I understand it. I get it. They thought what they were doing was right. Maybe it was , maybe it wasn't. Who can judge anyways?
What matters is that I came out of it stronger in mind and person. My husband and I both came out of it stronger in marriage. If anything , this year (2013) showed me that my husband is my best friend. He stood by through thick and thin , when I fell ,he picked me up. When I continued to fail at sobriety , he did not turn his back on me. He did not give up. He held my hand and walked me with  through every scary , emotional thing that I had to face in order to BE sober.
And its not over. I had an addiction, I have an addiction. Anytime I ever need surgery or dental work I will have to tell them that I have addiction to pain medication. And I use to think that I would be ashamed to have to admit that. But then the shame would be if I DID'NT admit it. You can't change what you do not acknowledge.
I don't have any predictions on how this story will end. I can't change what people think of me and I can't control how they feel either. I just have to know that I hit rock bottom. And I got up and climb out of it a better, stronger, and happier person.
And I am going to be ok. ~ Darcy