You Can Only Say Your Sorry Once.

My Dad always told us that you can only say that you are sorry once.
But how does that make up for all the hurt that you have caused?

But then, how do you go back in time and redo? Wouldn't  it be great if all of us got a redo? Or may be like that game show...You could get a life-line.

I guess I would have already used all my life-lines up.
I use to think that I was a horrible person. That I wasn't worth love or respect. But I am learning different.
But that does not take the pain away from the ones that I hurt. I think that they will never forgive me. That they will always hold me to past and never see the changes that I may have made for the better. I think that to them I will always be a disappointment.
I think that I could win the Nobel prize and I would still be to them a let down. The funny thing is that I have never set out to hurt anyone intentionally. I hurt them unintentionally.
In my heart I believe that I am not a mean person. I know that some would say different.
But I am trying in vain to right the wrongs and be a better person.
But I don't think it will ever be enough.
So here it goes: Like my Dad always said, you can only say it once.


I am so sorry.